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I found this through another persons blog post on Co-Creating Our Reality (thank you Frecia), The Work by Byron Kate. The first thing I did was start the process, which is to fill out a “Judge Thy Neighbor” Worksheet, which asks you to fill in the blanks about someone, dead or alive, that you haven’t forgiven yet. About halfway through the page I realized what the worksheet was all about and starting tearing up.

Several years ago, my brother and my mom had a huge fight, that I was a part of as well. My brother is 12 years older than me and was always my protector and main male role model since I never met my dad (until 5 years ago but that’s a whole nother story). This fight wasn’t just a yelling fight, it came close to being physical, and my brother threw some things around in our house (which we were renting from him) and in our garage. Our neighbors heard the commotion and called the cops out, which luckily my brother had already gone home by the time the cops had gotten there. I think he would have gotten physical witht he police if they had shown up in the middle of his tantrum. Anyway, needless to say, my relationship with my brother has never healed from this.

On the worksheet, I put his name down, and put my feelings down about all of this anger. I knew this was something that was hurting me. I knew this was something that I’ve needed to deal with and let go of. I think a part of me has held onto this because it feels like the only connection I have left with my brother, this anger. But I realized that these feelings, these thoughts that I’m hanging onto are hurting me much more than I realized.

Now, I’m working on the 2nd part of the process which is to turn the thoughts around. What do these thoughts really do for me, and can I believe in a thought that is the exact opposite, just as much as I believe in the thought that is hurting me. I know that I have to find this new thought, because thoughts become things, and I want to choose the good ones. Maybe….. err… I mean definately, when I change these thoughts that I’m having that are hurting me, into thoughts that are good that HELP me, then not only will I be healed, but my mom might be able to start healing from this as well…. and then maybe my brother too. Those are really good thoughts!